deal-breaker asked: As long as you are good enough for you, that's just fine. People suck, just don't let them get to you, If you don't let them have an impact they will eventually lose interest.

But I’m not good enough. I’ve never been good enough

deal-breaker asked: I guess you didn't get my first message, but really, you should listen to Emily, there are so many reasons to live. Even if you think it will never get better, that isn't true, life always gets better. Don't let those kids get to you. You seem like a really nice and cool guy.

Life doesn’t ALWAYS get better though. For some people it can get worse.. It’s hard not letting them get to me. I can feel them judging when just from the look in their eyes when I walk by them in the halls. I may ‘seem’ like one thing, but I’m far from the “nice and cool guy” that you think I am..

0nlyever-eating-carrots asked: Then they don't really seem like friends. Make some new ones. I'll listen to whatever you have to say. And I think 99.9% of tumblr users will say that too. We're here for you. And from what I've seen in the past year, tumblr people are most likely better talkers/listeners than real life friends.

It’s high school, people aren’t looking to make new friends. I honestly don’t see how talking to people whom I’m never seen/talked to can help..

0nlyever-eating-carrots asked: Hey there, so I'm Emily, hey how ya doing? Now I don't know what you're going through right now, but eventually everything will turn out alright. And it may not be a picture perfect picture-if that makes sense- but you'll be happier. You just gotta hold on and take whatever crap life throws at you in the meantime. Ya know? Don't leave this earth, there's so much more to look forward to. You've got your whole life in front of you, please don't kill yourself. I do care. Stranger love<3stick around

I just don’t know how much more of it I can take. All of my “friends” say that they would be sad if I killed myself, but none of them take the time to listen..

secretly-bald asked: ignore them. they're rumours. think about the fact that these people are doing this to upset you, ignore them and then you're the better person. you're not going down right to their levels by copying them and you're not satisfying them by retaliating. I know it's hard but just hang on and get on with your life. let them make rumours but know that you're not the person going out of your way to make other people feel like shit.

But if I ignore them I’m just leaving the door wide open for more harassment..

secretly-bald asked: dude. no. don't think like that. I don't know your situation but if you feel like no one else cares about you then you should care about you. don't lose hope in yourself and remember there will always be people out there to help you.

Well it’s hard having any sort of self-esteem when you constantly hear rumors and shit that people say behind your back.. It all adds up and I just can’t take it anymore.

Anonymous asked: i would miss you!

And the fact that all of these are anon most likely means that it’s one person. One person can’t make a difference no matter what people tell you…

Anonymous asked: hey dont kill yourself. i go to your school. i have the biggest crush on you. if you killed your self i would kill myself cause you are so perfect to me

I’m sure you do… And I’m sure you have a major crush on me and my ugly faggot self..

No one would miss me and the world would be better off without me. But I know that none of you care. Chances are I’ll lose followers because this isn’t a picture post. Fuck all of you.